7.5.2007
I have mixed emotions. Today was a long, long day. I spent the morning meeting a cheerful and creative family. It took me away from my everyday life, which is generally consumed with Eric and data and waiting for paychecks. I folded laundry and it was therapeutic. Having my family back in town is disarming. I can't quite figure out if I'm looking forward to my visit or I'm dreading the tension that generally exists...

4.5.2006
I am sitting in bed on a sunny day in Portland and I am listening to my own breath. I am feeling loved at the moment. I'm not quite sure what I mean my that, perhaps appreciated and admired. I'm thinking about all of the little occurances that I love in everyday life: I love when Eric giggles and jumps up and down, and listening to great music in my car, on a sunny, traffic free afternoon, and the light that hits the 7th floor of Broadway at 5:15 everyday.....I have piles of work all around me, and I can't help but smile.

12.21.2005
Merry Winter to everyone I love.

09.05.2005
gentle kisses from supple lips as the man in you paints on the canvas of my unfeigned heart.
i make him feel unwanted, and then bad, and then sad. and all i want to do is love him, to build my life around him.

09.04.2005
I forgive you Adam, for not being perfect. I love you.

09.02.2005
I don't wanna wanna wanna grow up.